This bit is somehow tied into the last section observing thoughts on pain. When I was taking classes in college, I had an interest in psychology, and took quite a few psychology classes. At that time due to personal experiences, a lot of my interest around human psychology were related to the following:

• Dreams, dream recall, and perception of time from within dreams. And/or the speed at which dreams are dreamed. How can what seemed like a 20 minute dream be dreamed in 3 seconds?
• Sleep, and the lack thereof and the effects on the human brain.
• Time and our perception of it.
• And of course, abnormal psychology. Or the study of mental illnesses. I did not end up getting this class, but ended up doing a lot of study about different mental illnesses and personality disorders out of my own curiosity.

I remember one of my last full terms in college in 2012, I was experiencing anxiety at school, and due to the strange feeling it left me with gained an interest in existentialism and read a lot of Sarte. I have since come to wonder if the derealization I experienced during this time, similar to what Sarte described is just a form of a person not trusting their own memories of what they are observing. Who knows!

Comparing the human mind or brain itself to a computer is in my opinion not a great comparison, even though I often do it. I think the readiness to make that comparison comes from the fact that a computer is the closest analog to a brain that we can understand, or that we even know exists. But just for fun, let's continue with these comparisons, mainly with memory.

Let's just say, brain's working memory would be the stack in a computer. The short term memory would be the heap, and the long term memory would be the non volatile memory. 

I have a condition due to a head injury where I have extreme difficulty keeping numbers anywhere in my mind other than on my stack. And I have to be continuously rewriting there to keep it there. In the sense that I must repeat it in my mind over and over until I can write it down. Other things on the other hand, such as a visual image, I seem to have little trouble remembering.

To continue with this comparison, sometimes things get stuck in my working memory, and seemingly continue to rewrite themselves there leaving no room for other jobs to be run. Even after clearing the stack and running said job, the persistent previous bit reappears and continues to repeat.

The heap in my brain if I were to compare in this badly explained computer language, is like a tangled spiderweb of pointers pointing to pointers pointing to pointers. Some are dead ends, and some of those intermediate pointers have values which may or may not relate to the correct pointer path to reach the actual data needed. Some of these pathways inevitably point to multiple pain values before reaching the needed memory space with the data requested. This is the part of my mind I understand the least.

The long term memory storage may or may not have been corrupted. As above there is no 1:1 storage of anything here, but every entry has multiple index locations as well as multiple addresses, and connected to other indexes and addresses. Data retrieval is not accurate at all times. Data retrieval may fail. Data retrieval may in itself corrupt original data.

Who in their right mind would design a computer like this? That question is why I do think that the human brain cannot safely be compared to a computer. If the above were talked about only a real computer, the reader may decide that said computer has corrupted/malfunctioning memory and possibly some malware. Maybe it does, but where is the software to recover this system?